recent unsettled matters leads me less blogging. this dawn dreamt my broken bromance with my Tibet artist friend, Bempa Chungdak. I saw in his domineer friend, another artist when we made friend in Tianjin where they studied art and craft design in Tianjin art college. in the bossy friend, Li, or my once department leader in QRRS, Sun, his house with his family, ie. his wife and only child. I waited Bempa spare his time for me, while he silently co-works with his partner, later shift to a workshop and closed the door behind. I saw their sculpture and other works, till they open the door again and returned to the lounge. Bempa still kept me muted, can't left his pal away. so I bitterly left, knowing our bromance fades forever, likes what I have now in reality. these days coming lunar new year festival holiday enthusiasm haunted me a lot, I longing for 3rd flight with my son, woz, to our hometown. my 2 elder sisters both asked me to come in gathering to spend the largest festival among Chinese. and my youngest elder sister's little son will hold wedding ceremony then. my sister promised offering us ￥5000 for flight and travel. my son likes air travel very much. but my credit debt will refrains us from modern and elegant voyage inc airline, according rumor on PRC's finishing civil solicitous credit system, even the cost between airline and railway almost ignorable. my acide kid brother tentatively advised us to pick railway which is dirty, exhausting and slow, according his research there is a straight line between Qiqihar and Wuxue, our hometown. he had tried most means to hurt me, lower promised aid monthly, cheatingly evaded returning my credit cards he took away. there must be hidden iron curtain in his living sphere. even last month salary casually incresed to ￥5000, the department cashier woman attempted to coerce me into obedient and idiotly satisfied. I have more renewal online to pay while my only working credit card diluted its facility to zero. God, dad, improve me higher to see safety of my properties, shift me anxiousless from uncertainty of my unclaimed sovereign. dad God, bring me sooner my Crowned Queen from Japan, Asoh Yukiko, and my Royal China. bring us home and palace for settlement. grant us an enjoyable journey in woz's winter vacation, and workable credit for spanning things network in our living standard.