my salary in 2 months both below 2500 cny. it didn't crippled me but alerted me vicious CCP's killing attempt against me. I lived well in my current standard, but God, I'm looking forward for sustainable life even retirement a decade later will likely rotten it. dear dad God, let the world plenty and my space immersed.
my life simpler with single goal fought for love. I had satisfaction among my haunted restaurant woman operators, my dorm administrative female accountant, my dear elder sister, but my most passionate is my alumnus, a tall girl & a talent girl. I have nothing but talkative, still I had self-esteem to chase their emotional support.
I once humble & trying wait till my salary release day, but then I felt Holy bliss not only that, so i reached out for help. the mean dorm canteen & my sister both attempt to evade, but they were let stay to support. dad God, all the afternoon I wonder how to make better usage of the blanket, and I will lay it barely under my bed quilt, not using it to heat wet bedclothes any more, I hope warmth on any level of bed will vanish the moisture beneath.
day in day out, PRC surveillance fought seesaw war upon my website: implant trash data into my database via the web app's bug. if I carelessly not clean cache tables in time, then my website will go down. dear God, the job i can do better & better while the zombie hackers, mostly young cheap Chinese youth will die nobody.
a week passed since last posting online which improves my presence worldly. last week my dining bills again surplus my budget, God dad, I had many fears but I didn't retreat. in a decade I will retired but I don't have retirement saving plan. dear God dad, I saw more severe problem with sinking PRC in its embracing aging society.
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