these mornings sleepy after near 3 weeks woke up naturally at hometown. there must be different essentials in heat in central China and northeastern China. to me, it likes decay of dry wall within body. I feel after a week or month I will accustom the weather here 20 years spent while light as empty hand. God, let my determination meaningful for my Empire and my family.
we finally got our train tickets after our travel agency, ctrip.com, monitored more than 600000 times. such a relief at end of our 3rd flight hometown tour. however, I saw more tragedy in my 2nd elder sister's family due her poor family education and life experience and expectation. I tried to help but God, dad, you know what the bliss is.
these days our intimacy with hometown relatives even better. their endeavor improving their lives realized and positive. I just hope I can help them more in future, with my regal court. now half days of the vacation passed, my son and I looking forward to our work and life space in cold northeastern China.
this morning is gloomy. there are satisfaction in recent sleeping. my kid brother visited us again directly. he invited us to visit his new house in town but we defied, among his threats to cancel his aid during my credit debt crisis. I burst out my angry among his bitterly setup me to frustrated in last year by all means. God, we disciplined to self-rely.
after voyage including 3 hours train, 3 hours in air, 3 hours at bus, a taxi of 30 minutes, we settled in my sister's house where her younger son's wedding preparing. my 2 sisters treated us well, with their foolish and selfish. but my kid brother, now my foe, did hurt me with his means and contempt.
Chinese lunar holiday severe outdated: in one or 2 months since Christmas, people in sinking PRC dying sedative in waiting a huge orderless and blackout when the gifted with plentiness joyful with their earnings, while waiting their misfortunate neighbors go hell or desperate unattached. harvest season, the original meaning of lunar spring festival, went clueless and ghost of hostile tribal rite. world now lives in Christian God's shine and under union of the one.
recent listening audio ebook and lecture sometimes weighted me from joy with faith firm and mission brilliant under God's shine. I always have a sharp and greedy eyes on knowledge of physics of world mechanics. when I burned my brain too exhausting, my doubts sadden my sanity soon. so I pray God never allow myself too much burden of library to cloud strikes of holy spirit, to choke crisp and slim of gospel.
It's so much fun enjoying Japanese drones in dream. It's much detailed in dream than I can describe. China under PRC in sinking hole into poverty and chaos just for no one cares about sustain and maintain the people nowadays. a merciless slaughter era, like what happened in mideast, must approaching under CCP's iron curtain. joblessness and sternity of society ruins the unite land in title of my ancestor, Zhu's.
last week too busy to refrain from sitting, results in painful leg. but the fruit satisfying: almost all my sites equipped with paypal donation button. in stern economy, I really need cyberspace aid to survive my portal online, as well as China democracy voiced. the paypal button harness paypal.me vanity url, quite expedite to deploy onto site. hope your decision of award gears up the world includes my sites.
with last month surging salary my most urgent renewal accomplished. now praying for more year end bonus to cover all my web assets update. in dawn dream I saw broke bromance with my campus friend. after so many years alone, where and how is our friendship, where can I find my best team scattered so silent and spacey? but we have future gathering.
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- dreamt of twin babies birth. 1 年 3 个月 ago
- dreamt of alumni gathering and travel. 1 年 3 个月 ago
- dreamt of my infant and pending youth. 1 年 3 个月 ago
- dreamed of Chinese peasants in Russia. 1 年 4 个月 ago
- dreamed of once powerful family. 1 年 4 个月 ago
- one meal a day this week. 1 年 4 个月 ago
- first anxiety free morning after broke contract w/ dorm canteen 1 年 4 个月 ago
- my indebted university. 1 年 4 个月 ago
- visit fortune-teller 1 年 5 个月 ago