dreamed of playing Japanese style sleep training game

last noon I wrapped myself with blanket & dozed, when I woke up my body warm but my right lower part of leg wet & cold. that reminded when I first time moved into this dorm room the air was damned wet & I busy with my tasks without break. when I jogged near 3pm, I found nerves of my right leg resumed: my ankle is strong & flexible. my lower part of leg felt warmth in the cold weather. before my dinner I told my son the gospel. my bank account also added some bonus the colleague informed days ago. I transferred the grandma of my son 100 CNY for celebration & thankful. all the night my leg sensible. in the night I peed twice. each time i returned to dream, I dreamed my confined bed as some condo where I persuade some young man of my concern, say nephew or hometown kid, to marry and have sex for the purpose of life. I even dreamed of erotic sex position. after anxious free got up, my fingers' pain slightly thicker but however I put up swift, now I'm hopeful. dear God dad, my faith in you stronger.

my confined bed now hardly a relaxation for my stiff body, still I had to. last night I likely peed twice, each time returned to dream, I detailedly dreamed of in rebellion organization. we planted mines under pebbles, also planted potatoes. we fought for Australian. I designed campaigns, assigned man hands.last night I reviewed my first love with a hometown neighbor's niece, who didn't complete her college but married a graduate provincial. long time I thought I missed most of my hometown province's girls' love then I moved to northeastern China while my hometown is central China, but now I recognized, I didn't miss the best part of it: we did our best contact when we last walk out in the hometown town she accepted my invitation. we were so poor but we had youth & young plays in which I regret for nothing, for both of us. Dear God dad, I once lost balance upon my lingering bed, now it turned out peaceful and routine. Thanks, God dad, let my life hopeful & playful.

recently reviewed my first love more and tried to reach it. I trusted my kid brother who busy with his business and rebuffed my will to reconnect. then my nephew responded, offered hand. he is also a businessman. he inquired my mindset, my dad as God, my being the Son. it was almost first time I explained my family legacy. in dawn dream, I devised plan to buy siberia, as another way from military action to free Chinese north. that's why I lingered here so long even I desperate for central China sunshine.later I detailedly design layout of leaflet of likely promotion our victory of gain siberia. last night unfortunately the pee kettle turned upside down and spoilt, for I didn't in night perceived the situation. however, it not smelly, nor messy. thanks God, I still enjoyed this crystal clearly settled morning.

in dawn dream once & once, I treated my bed as state funeral, or imperial memory hall.then again I used it as command center, or operative base, for interviewing VIPs and issue ordains. last night I peed some outside of the kettle. dear God dad, let me find new laundry contractor, let me clean and keep sanity. today I due to shower, let my baptism smoothly, dear Holy!

last night I got pee kettle right after 3 failures. in dawn dream, we among concerned like my son, that we will survive till enter survival phrase. for the purpose, I peed near 7am and returned to quilt in which I dreamed we entered survival phrase, till the water bag opened and the inside octopus released. It's normal morning, dear God dad, my anxiety upon my painful fingers relentless. hear Holy, let my life easier and my life wholly.

last night I almost got erection. I had to pee to lessen heat gathering in my penis.God shown I still capable of sex. in dawn dream, I remotely contacted someone, like my son, I tried hard to keep my surface layer has running water like my hometown's brook. after got up and preparing blog, I saw my parents seeing my departure for school. God knows how they missing me while I never perceived that when I was young. this morning I lingered longer on bed, still I didn't miss timing. God dad, let my life easier.

last night was lunar new year eve. fireworks everywhere let me sleeplessly. in dawn dream outside of a building, one side is the gleeson's story, another side is another disabled athlete. I always thought the difference between diligent & slavery, grace & cheap, blessed & ruthless like beast. gleeson's dad, the freezing man's father, likely from a cheap family, so he pushed hard his son relentlessly surviving like beast. that forced his team members in shames or glory, like every industry has downplay.that remind my own history: I relentlessly chased my learning, esp computer, even in adversities situation like the current chilly dorm room which disabled me now with painful fingers & waist. those years in my youth, I never complained poor salary, long time non-break hardworking, coarse food. dear God dad, mightbe I never know Marxism's bitchiness different from capitalism's grace, mightbe I never know Chinese well educated than blacks & Muslim. dear Holy, there must be a standard for my imperial citizenship, let my Empire shrives while barbarian sinks, beast sink. I seeking bliss, dear Holy.

in dawn dream, I insisted time zone 9 would be better than where China was, global time zone 8. I saw time zone 9 has wealthier payroll, versatile goods and service, far more dearer, much huger cash flow. dear God, yesterday watched a video of armless kid dealing with personal care, dear God dad, I should not complain my pains, but still this morning I felt sad that I can't live without pains. dear God dad, pandemic lockdown near its end, grant me another laundry contractor.

in dawn dream prayed God not let my son frequent masturbation, with which I did a lot in my youth due to unable to afford real sex. but since my adulthood, I never did once. last night I posted passionate post in my alumni group. this morning I got up slightly earlier, God, I like it. this noon I will picked back a restaurant I once haunted but refuted once by the boss, for I lost appetite in my recent frequented restaurant. God, let it peaceful and fruitful.

last night, I tentatively let my quilt cooler and get a better fast sleep. in dawn dream, in family life i cared my son and without special treat, his heat disappeared and didn't sneeze, totally resumed to healthy after covid-19 pandemic. i didn't saw his mom's joys but our gratefulness is real and huge. last night reviewed CCP's wrest not to allow my acquaintance to accept my laundry contract, aiming sicken me in insanity. dear God, I will wait and see, before that I will survive weeks only spa no fresh clean inner clothes. dear Holy, save me from rotten.

these days fingers' pains let me lingered more on bed in dawn. in my mind, my bed likes a H clockwise 90, only 2 sides larger to allow my arm's spread, and legs' stretching. in dawn dreams, I always regard there were some eggs shaped memory capable units among the paddles aside my foot, I chose one like choosing a wife or a computer to enter another dream or adventure. this dawn dream I vivid saw my dark cousin, who once CCP cadre and close chaser of my dad, I saw my mom waiting for my homework while I in risks. my homework is like a clipboard with different narrative elements, likely include memory of son of my only aunt, whose major is construction design. dear God dad, after broke so many obstacles to arrive here, I in time to catch my main meal and morning sunshine. thx Holy, let my life easier.

dear God dad, I can't wait for the hometown journey. in dawn dream, I decompile an app distributed by CCP, found its core functions self-limited not to improve, but just act like a trojan reporting to its server. then I replaced the 2 core parts with normal, self-improving ones and repacked for family usage. this morning I lingered more time on bed, dear God dad, soon I will showered, let my life easier.