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near dawn, lingering in concern about if should I buy some advertisement for my website. first dreamed in a beloved circumstance, say among alumni, I tried to remind them of my website but failed. then detailedly dwelling on advertising some page elements for promotion. i even regret why I didn't try free ad credit google once offered.
dear God, I have to see my websites' growth nature, pl rid me my anxiety. this morning, google free ad offer instantly laid in my mailbox. i tried at once but can't afford first purchase. God, it should be long run, isn't it? my duty & my family mission?
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dreamed of army
dawn dream detailed with my son we visiting mountainous rebelion force or revolution area. a trained captain with his family recepted us. even in restrict career, he treated us kind and wisely. his wife helps. we risked to cross over walls to reach out, among cheap lanes & mop of kids, and left chaos behind. it's sunny morning now, dear God, forgive me lose dream most part.
yesterday QRRS dispatched food coupon. I informed my son's mom to fetch over. she drove here around 6pm. I prepared my son some oranges & chest nuts. God dad, our life is enjoyable!
dreamed of designing header for dad's union
last night my quilt got too hot and I spend some time to open to let it cool. in dawn dream, my passed dad's office likely belong to union. i designed 3 headings for the union's advertising. I reviewed my works several times still felt pround enough as an amateur. the facing gay room now more and more hostile & criminal, last twice, they put screws on corridor, i reported to dorm administrative, it quietly handled. this time they dump banana skin on toilet room floor aiming hurt me. I will not sms the woman director again, for she donesn't welcome me as low income rentee. dear God dad, clear my circumstance from murders.
dreamed of self service of closet.
this dawn dream was cozy in warm quilt. i again and again dreamed of 5 self serving closets. I likely stored my things with my dad's. I was glad in the end they all working for me. this morning my fingers seemingly more painful, but God dad, I regarded it as the more approaching moment of fixation.
what a sound dream.
dreamed of whiteboard
in dawn dream I using e-ink whiteboard, scratching mind maps. I got up a bit earlier today, for I hated recently late sleep. the night before yesterday I watched USA movie 'main street', its topic so attractive for me, money, grace, prosperity. then last night PRC surveillance blocked my watching movie within PRC source. dear God, let dog barks upon wrong trees, let less coincidence.
dreamed of IRC
dreamed of programming with script
likely last night read report that microsoft rip off officially adobe flash player from its OS. the flash player development environment called action script, a decade ago I once learned and adopted it to building my multimedia for corporate training projects. I dreamed first I using it to program system wide projects which usually more powerful language like python or c++ harnessed, then program management projects, like OS menu, OS status management, etc, then the last, i tried to use it to manage object programs, like client, user apps, etc. this morning I got up later, for pains mounting to deter me. now almost all settled, dear God dad, last night i sms several messages to dorm director woman, mocking CCP hidden project to kill me in this shabby place: the facing room residence, some gay workers, tentatively spilt water on floor aiming let me slip. God, your saw my smile.
I was heard
dreamed belfast, likely a recall of a watched movie
in dream, I travelled around the world and currently in belfast. I want to voice command adding a list item, likely journalism of tourism. I tried many times, some succeed while sometimes failed for format of command wrongly recognized. last night in loneliness I chatted with my alumnus, a guy loved in our senior middle school, then fell in love with another alumni when graduated and married her and had a son. I felt the dying of love in too familiar live and pains of loneliness. he replied me and we mocked each other. he aided me several times financially. dear God dad, let this merry season full of warmth among kind people, grant me light heart even among painful body. this is a gloomy morning, dad God, there will be hope as well as sunshine.
freeze from my alumnus in asset management industry
yesterday I talked a lot about myself in my haunted restaurant, I like a gas bag full of hope & passion. but an alumnus, when I full of gratefulness & called him via video in wiexun, he kill me in half minute. yes, he shaved while I casually, he ask for leave in cause of bringing his kid to dine while it was almost 7pm. after the talk, I reviewed my pendent business, my website, my delicious meals, my obligation to Holy, my shabby salary & more and more severe curbing attempts from CCP, I saw large gap between stable life & my adversity. dear God dad, PRC Dying in suffering, CCP, the dictator tried all means to tighten financial reins over common people's life, starvation might be close and economic disaster might be soon. save my web, God, save my tiny enjoyable life so far. in this gloomy morning, Dearest Holy, gather my faith for breakthrough of sustaining my grace.
dreamed of live encryption
a restful morning
dreamed of declaration of my children
in dawn dream I again and again repeated how to declare my 3 children: I will using 30% dynamics with http to declare my first son, then using 50% dynamics with https declare my 2nd child, then 20% with http to do with my 3rd child. I my own don't know what that means, but I had the proportion. my dearest relative, my 3rd elder sister, even hard to believe I will have romance as God promised I have better option in choosing my new partner of life. but yesterday 2 girls in my sphere both accepted my gaze which relax me. in the night i buzzed a alumnus in north China where just pestered by pandemic, he soon bored by my ailment report. dear God dad, I still have faith my suffering can be removed by heat & your mercy. I still believed I can be attractive. thx God dad, this sunny morning, I really anxiousness free.