my salary in 2 months both below 2500 cny. it didn't crippled me but alerted me vicious CCP's killing attempt against me. I lived well in my current standard, but God, I'm looking forward for sustainable life even retirement a decade later will likely rotten it. dear dad God, let the world plenty and my space immersed.

God helps me to execute a wish: clear debt to my dorm canteen & shift my laundry to another contractor. last month with super powerful salary, I wrote off 1000, this month my salary first under expectation, left me below 1500 to dine. but this dusk surprising bonus marks a perfect echo: I paid back canteen at once another 800. dear God, as my wish, my life standard guaranteed.

these days i burning my talent for composing my desire for 2 alumn in its weixun group. I had being so pale in emotional life. they r souce of my rising proud & tendering. It's time of my monthly blog release, and messed with launch time. God's mercy, i now may have a breath.

my life simpler with single goal fought for love. I had satisfaction among my haunted restaurant woman operators, my dorm administrative female accountant, my dear elder sister, but my most passionate is my alumnus, a tall girl & a talent girl. I have nothing but talkative, still I had self-esteem to chase their emotional support.

a day passed, and a week passed. every morning when i got up, i reckon if my work worth the pains i put on, and each time, i felt the promising day God grants. half hour later, I will have my main meal in the day, and God's mercy, it always so rich & elegant. holy spirit, clear my debt sooner to allow my aid to my son who now had 2 meals in school arrives in time.

PRC surveillance again ruined my database & drained my website. as long as they burning money on my asset, that's Ok: I like every common Chinese killing the old mule with my straw & light-heartedly. my new Japanese heat blanket will arrive in days, for my kid brother bought me PRC heat blanket already wrecked in less than a season: the LED control interface doesn't show any more. dear God, quality so important among products & society.

this month really a harvest: I gain a most surprising salary, 6000cny in a bundle. I made well usage of it. holy doesn't let me worry and now I saw it. in any sense, It's blissful. in coming harshness of the elder, my independence will intact. God's mercy, I was far more fortunate than my pals in my life's arrangement, like housing, parenting, retirement, etc. God's mercy, glory of the son constantly shines.

I once humble & trying wait till my salary release day, but then I felt Holy bliss not only that, so i reached out for help. the mean dorm canteen & my sister both attempt to evade, but they were let stay to support. dad God, all the afternoon I wonder how to make better usage of the blanket, and I will lay it barely under my bed quilt, not using it to heat wet bedclothes any more, I hope warmth on any level of bed will vanish the moisture beneath.

day in day out, PRC surveillance fought seesaw war upon my website: implant trash data into my database via the web app's bug. if I carelessly not clean cache tables in time, then my website will go down. dear God, the job i can do better & better while the zombie hackers, mostly young cheap Chinese youth will die nobody.

a week passed since last posting online which improves my presence worldly. last week my dining bills again surplus my budget, God dad, I had many fears but I didn't retreat. in a decade I will retired but I don't have retirement saving plan. dear God dad, I saw more severe problem with sinking PRC in its embracing aging society.