beated son for under performance

when he tried to mingle his sinful mom's tentative turn-away cinema arrangement his dad assigned him to his meaningless art lesson her mother escorted, his dad's rage mounted high. when the delayed grandma brought him arrived the cinema, his under performance resulted in his dad's slam. as his dad, my disappointment lowered to hopelessness. I beat him 3 sessions before movie, after movie, dinning restaurant, and bus to his mom's house. I even hope he shamed to kill himself. what a shame he put his proud dad in! but his mom retorted and made my kid brother buzzed in from Guangdong, southern China warned me of putting asylum once more if I be again violent. I regardless. in nearly a week after the lunar morning holiday, my son mute to my sms and phone call, inc urgent exchange of verification code the new cellphone I shift him in the end of the dispute receiving. this morning I lingered on bed lately to avoid boring and sick change when usually I will visit my son in the weekend. my son called me via sms near 11pm and I caught it at once on bed. I visited him at once and peaceful there in his mom's house. God dad, how I obliged to this gracious end happening.
last night It drizzled, when I lately watched outside window. and I felt blessed at once. Dad God, U put me right in any adversities.

in dawn dream, I experienced with emotions situations of polygyny. I felt I possibly choose monogamy for full potential of every girls. I experienced the Royal, the dispensable love of excellent girls, still I was afraid punishment of love turned hatred, fraid of shortage of my focus and energy. this morning I haunted by 2 engagements dreams near getting up. I felt time to bid farewell of polygyny. I was not regret of my young ambitions upon love, insatiable desire of girls, but now in my elderness, I will company my non-exchangeable love. dear God, bring me real life I deserve, bring me true partner fruitful, Thanx.

in dawn dream detailedly preparing inheritage book. one for my 1st child with only one copying slot/jumper, for doctrine; the one for my second child with 2 slots/jumpers, for politics and economics. 3 slots/jumpers for my 3rd child, for all details of ruling. CCP still hacking around: this morning I tried to listen music, they attempted to ruin with their old dirty skill, let my speaker's bluetooth failed several times, I had to turn on another speaker to expel them. the old speaker once working, then years they hacked it, by all means locally on upper floor, then they likely rewrote firmware or something else, they controlled it finally as they wished. but dear God dad, how cheap they are: less than 100 CNY, they confronted with brand new gear sound as rock. dear God dad, my night pee kettle arriving today, they let the logistics wrongly displayed for days, but what else they can do? can they remove my order or infect my goods? go hell bitch CCP!

last night I ordered my son fruits to deliver to his house. Chinese communities quite efficient. in dawn dream I was in campus, the neighbor department likely piano students, or music therapy asylum, I tried to buzz my relatives but can't remember number while I was abroad, however I got it through & talked. in dream I several times saw my naked & having sex with girls but I didn't feel erotic upon naked scene. dear God dad, was I turning old?

in my son's last visit on last Saturday, his mom let him brought her old notebook as I suggested to improve its usage. I installed fydeos in half house and both my son and I felt a huge success. then the woman want more. she want to retrieve her oldest notebook. I restored bios pw from family asset book, but windows pw missing. So I tried to persuade my son worked with me using windows PE tool to modify user pw. but in last decade lots of configuration changed and my barely backup of the PE failed to boot up with many bootable usb building tools. in more than 12 hours, my son scorned by me and put up focus to try all means to fix the doomed task. I called it closet skeleton. after I finally gave up, I watched a beautiful movie telling honest unbeatable. I want to boost my son's confidence upon installing Os but he less venturesome as supposed. he just too busy with damned CCP senior middle school homeworks. dear God dad, my new winter pants arriving, my artificial environment improved a lot, let my life easier & enjoyable. thx for this bright morning my pains worthied.

dear God dad, I here just blabla for celebrating put on, defeating fingers and arms pains. yesterday I first time put on 2 woolen pants and felt much better. my baby brother who consistently aid my living expense, buzzed in inquiring his brought me clothes. that's all ok. I watched 2 wonderful movies in night after let go my son's mom's legacy windows pw missing. this dawn dream reviewing the 2 movie, echo touching moments, just so peaceful! dear God dad, hours later I will showered, help me and let my life easier.

first dreamed I with my colleagues moved to a new workspace, we had a lot of funs. then dreamed I lived on a damn control unit. some young people had fun with it and power all down. but when I need it, power resumed, reliable like my work unit, QRRS, an old style SOE. For I lingered on bed, my vivid dream lost most of its color. this morning I put on 2 new bought vest & pants, even troublesome but rewarding: warmer now. Dear God dad, let my life easier.

this dawn dream originally cozy, but now I only remember some shattered pieces for painful fingers let my putting up long and boring. I dreamed I tried with my son google's new gaming online service, strus, for It's broadband demand is strict, so I contacted telcom company. a black young man serving me. It's Monday, dear God dad, I met some early birds, ie. young QRRS staff preparing for office work in toilet. now I almost left to free. Holy spirit, let my business booming, let my life easier.