beated son for under performance

when he tried to mingle his sinful mom's tentative turn-away cinema arrangement his dad assigned him to his meaningless art lesson her mother escorted, his dad's rage mounted high. when the delayed grandma brought him arrived the cinema, his under performance resulted in his dad's slam. as his dad, my disappointment lowered to hopelessness. I beat him 3 sessions before movie, after movie, dinning restaurant, and bus to his mom's house. I even hope he shamed to kill himself. what a shame he put his proud dad in! but his mom retorted and made my kid brother buzzed in from Guangdong, southern China warned me of putting asylum once more if I be again violent. I regardless. in nearly a week after the lunar morning holiday, my son mute to my sms and phone call, inc urgent exchange of verification code the new cellphone I shift him in the end of the dispute receiving. this morning I lingered on bed lately to avoid boring and sick change when usually I will visit my son in the weekend. my son called me via sms near 11pm and I caught it at once on bed. I visited him at once and peaceful there in his mom's house. God dad, how I obliged to this gracious end happening.
last night It drizzled, when I lately watched outside window. and I felt blessed at once. Dad God, U put me right in any adversities.

in dawn dream, I experienced with emotions situations of polygyny. I felt I possibly choose monogamy for full potential of every girls. I experienced the Royal, the dispensable love of excellent girls, still I was afraid punishment of love turned hatred, fraid of shortage of my focus and energy. this morning I haunted by 2 engagements dreams near getting up. I felt time to bid farewell of polygyny. I was not regret of my young ambitions upon love, insatiable desire of girls, but now in my elderness, I will company my non-exchangeable love. dear God, bring me real life I deserve, bring me true partner fruitful, Thanx.

in dawn dream detailedly preparing inheritage book. one for my 1st child with only one copying slot/jumper, for doctrine; the one for my second child with 2 slots/jumpers, for politics and economics. 3 slots/jumpers for my 3rd child, for all details of ruling. CCP still hacking around: this morning I tried to listen music, they attempted to ruin with their old dirty skill, let my speaker's bluetooth failed several times, I had to turn on another speaker to expel them. the old speaker once working, then years they hacked it, by all means locally on upper floor, then they likely rewrote firmware or something else, they controlled it finally as they wished. but dear God dad, how cheap they are: less than 100 CNY, they confronted with brand new gear sound as rock. dear God dad, my night pee kettle arriving today, they let the logistics wrongly displayed for days, but what else they can do? can they remove my order or infect my goods? go hell bitch CCP!

last night I ordered my son fruits to deliver to his house. Chinese communities quite efficient. in dawn dream I was in campus, the neighbor department likely piano students, or music therapy asylum, I tried to buzz my relatives but can't remember number while I was abroad, however I got it through & talked. in dream I several times saw my naked & having sex with girls but I didn't feel erotic upon naked scene. dear God dad, was I turning old?

in my son's last visit on last Saturday, his mom let him brought her old notebook as I suggested to improve its usage. I installed fydeos in half house and both my son and I felt a huge success. then the woman want more. she want to retrieve her oldest notebook. I restored bios pw from family asset book, but windows pw missing. So I tried to persuade my son worked with me using windows PE tool to modify user pw. but in last decade lots of configuration changed and my barely backup of the PE failed to boot up with many bootable usb building tools. in more than 12 hours, my son scorned by me and put up focus to try all means to fix the doomed task. I called it closet skeleton. after I finally gave up, I watched a beautiful movie telling honest unbeatable. I want to boost my son's confidence upon installing Os but he less venturesome as supposed. he just too busy with damned CCP senior middle school homeworks. dear God dad, my new winter pants arriving, my artificial environment improved a lot, let my life easier & enjoyable. thx for this bright morning my pains worthied.

dear God dad, I here just blabla for celebrating put on, defeating fingers and arms pains. yesterday I first time put on 2 woolen pants and felt much better. my baby brother who consistently aid my living expense, buzzed in inquiring his brought me clothes. that's all ok. I watched 2 wonderful movies in night after let go my son's mom's legacy windows pw missing. this dawn dream reviewing the 2 movie, echo touching moments, just so peaceful! dear God dad, hours later I will showered, help me and let my life easier.

first dreamed I with my colleagues moved to a new workspace, we had a lot of funs. then dreamed I lived on a damn control unit. some young people had fun with it and power all down. but when I need it, power resumed, reliable like my work unit, QRRS, an old style SOE. For I lingered on bed, my vivid dream lost most of its color. this morning I put on 2 new bought vest & pants, even troublesome but rewarding: warmer now. Dear God dad, let my life easier.

this dawn dream originally cozy, but now I only remember some shattered pieces for painful fingers let my putting up long and boring. I dreamed I tried with my son google's new gaming online service, stadia, for It's broadband demand is strict, so I contacted telcom company. a black young man serving me. It's Monday, dear God dad, I met some early birds, ie. young QRRS staff preparing for office work in toilet. now I almost left to free. Holy spirit, let my business booming, let my life easier.

dreamed a weibo user, his meme is a supermarket real estate of northeastern metropolis, Jilin. for northeastern Chinese more likely higher than usual Chinese, esp girls, so most actors or show stars from northeastern China. the guy selling gossip on the Chinese version of twitter, acting like an agency company but amateur, for CCP restricts news or informative business. in dream, the guy making a live from his craft, including direct award online. that reminds me Renzhenfei's 2nd daughter, her first public show is sitting with feet on crown on floor. she forever cheap. she is the fake hero's second wife's only outcome. she likely cheap. for Ren's first wife likely high rank CCP cadre's family, while he suffered decades of subdue, he freed himself with a lower fortune woman. Dear God, last night i watched a movie in which a detective in business honesty protected his client with his life, beaten his cop pal who lost in disloyalty. Christianity let western people so innocent & elegant while Chinese under CCP so helplessly in words, in service. save China from primitiveness, save us from clumsy of no human self-service.

in dawn dream, my son and I in our mountain cabin, I will see him off to his mom's journey, but I had to order him a takeout online while also in urgence to fix my Chinese payment problem. my chinatel payment app recently frequently has unknown failed payment, likely hacker abusing. then dreamed on ATM, an elder helped to let it show my bank card recent 5 transactions, while I previously found the transaction report disabled. it showed many failed bills and I immediately closed them item by item, to lest lose. dear God, last night I almost bid farewell to my wechat alumni group, for where all my alumni muted to me, while I relentlessly for love. dear God dad, hours later I will again cost half hour to put on, for I due to weekly shower in public spa. let my life easier, Holy, let my fingers less pains in melting winter freeze. thx, dear God dad.

in dawn dream I first dreamed of my only aunt, and her 5 boys in which the last one so close to me. I wonder how she adopted my parents' stretage and join the competition. I must be the key to my parents' stretage, and so many chasers after me but I never moved by them. this morning I hesitated to get up or lingering in warm quilt and that rendered my dream suffering. dear God dad, let my life easier.

in dawn dreamed I tried to fix something by restore it to its previous status then retrieve the lower part content of it, like a jar whose lid is broken. my son with me. near sunlight bright, I didn't hesitate and got up. this peaceful morning, dear God dad, let faith in my heart strong.

in dawn dream, I first experience hostage. I with my son choose to chase after daylight. then I felt better to got up, and dream faded. I even rewarmed awhile in quilt but now I saw most chores proceeded and I intact. in an hour I will refueled with meal, dear God dad, my life during pandemics was half, but still I rejoice in survival.

in dawn dream, first dreamed Russian 10% supporters rally in protest march, crashed with police. then I know I also had 10% supporters among forming march near police. last night likely for my quilt warmth, I total night didn't pee. such a miracle! dear God dad, I felt my body still young. dear God dad, my painful fingers can be fixed by improved mutation system. I still have faith, dear Holy!

in dawn dreamed first in my 2nd elder brother's home where there was witchy ceremony for passed relatives. I need to trace which relative or something else working, so I deleted all browser's cookies then individually imported to find the working one then manually edit its cookie to extend its valid date. then dreamed in a dark dorm, where one of my alumnus, Chenxinjin, who once financially aided me, lived on my upper bed. we were departing overnight, i entreated Chen bought some books for me. I again adopted cookie tracing tech to find book I want. It's second day with my getup aid tool, I felt much eased. dear God dad, this morning really anxious free, help me maintain my lovable life and let me go easily as my once fainted in spa.

yesterday I reviewed my relentless desire and felt more balanced. my bed more and more let me bored: my left shoulder sore and not allow my sleeping on it.in dawn dream I succeeded in something, then I thought how to teach my son about exam. I need birdview, middle view, and detail view of a company will appeared in exam & need to remember. at first I puzzled by middle view, then I knew it's a deducted information of the company, while birdview or spot view will only left a name only, stripped all details on map, like the process of abstracting. It's like a fading person in history, like me. even less joy on bed, I lingered more for warmth and spreading myself. dear God dad, let my life easier.

in dawn dream I was assigned to buy 2 islands for the corp. another colleague, likely the weak technician leader of my once QRRS cable TV department. I calculated different aspects' cost then made a bidding. the other island was 10 times larger, so it was easy to sum up. this morning my pains thicker, dear God dad let summer sooner and I will wear less clothes.

in dawn dream I preparing a carnival among which there was a section Chinese and Thailand need fight to prove whose martial art stronger, in show and in reality. I search internet for thailand friend and I got & trusted. then I chose Chinese the winer and let him keep the key. this morning I obviously loathed to get up for the painful putting up. dear God dad, let my life easier.