last night I almost starved, ate porridge I prepared for my son's today visit then my hanger eased. my son's internet likely down for more than a day, or his device inactive online all day to refuse my possible call in. my younger brother also tentatively refute my buzz. all showing lunar 2018 will be a harsher year when sinking CCP will adopt new strategy to force me exit. God dad, is it too late or too soon?
agarten.in, dream to fly. 一元夙愿，缤纷两帝
recently PRC censorship blocks openvpn in the morning till noon, which likely targeting my most posting period just after dawn dreams. I prepared more alternative vpn on our devices against insane surveillance before worst darkened sky over the scarred land after Ming dynasty, pearl of my ancestor's contribution in China history.
2 days restlessly for a ready converted RTM my todolist export after found touching memories of zhone early years. now dust down and I lighthearted. hope my learning history prolonged by such journeys.
a firm step learning after western culture. hope I can afford more to secure my mouth and teeth workable.
recently relentless preparing surprise gift to woz, dearest son in his solitude, against boring summer heat, after successfully pull long time expected backup router into hand against PRC surveillance behind curtain detaining efforts which ruined our first time purchase flawless. I ordered him raspberry pi computing board aiming arouse his computer interest from scratch as I admire in decades ago when computer industry still in earlier stage and its hero bill gates, woz, etc still hand making. but I really don't know if my son, now equipped with smart pocket devices, would inspired. God, lend me vivid tuition and lend my son his learning initiative to start up an adventure.
PRC head dog barking more harsher upon the owner of its stolen properties. it gathered mafia, thieves, gays, and abnormals into allies challenge my sovereign of China from my ancestor, Ming Dynasty founder. God, dad, how it can ruin the delicious banquet holy prepared thousand years ahead?
my son's under-performance kill me. I hope it did hurt my son as it did to me. God, how he could make such mistake to mingle his dad with his sinful mom's family? I never sit with them on same table after I divorce her. I reckon the family dirty, cheating, sinful, and fell. I hope my son chose as I did to my mother in my hometown decade ago.
we offered free boarding and lodging, so woz has full time to game on LED large screen, with his pals around attracted. the town main business is cement, results in heavy air pollution. still these 2 days sunny. I sun bathed a lot. my nephew reconnects our relation broke since his rebel teenage after I informed him my hard economy due startup and promised help him in future.
its really a touching bliss for I longing pastime with my son, esp in his infant. he is so cute and smart in dream! God, dad, allow me to have more children to feed, to witness glories of the Son. my internet under more and more severe attacks, sinking PRC in fearful.